Making a New Day for Myself
Some of you may have noticed that I seem to be having a rather craptastic week. That would be true. I would give you the play by play from my horoscope who this week seems to mock me with its "I told you so attitude". However I can't because it only keeps a day of history. Its attitude seems to be "Put your behind in your past." I do not need attitude from a horoscope.
So suffice it to say that Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday were pretty much like Yesterday. Blah blah emotion. Blah blah feelings. Blah blah why don't you shut the blah up already!!!
It's time to move into unfamiliar waters of emotional intensity, even if you are frightened by what you don't understand. Just because you don't think you are capable of enjoying this irrational journey, don't shut out the possibility of having an incredible experience. Get out of the noise inside your head and sink into the feelings of your heart. As long as you are willing to communicate, the complexity will simplify in the days ahead.
What I know is I had to take a couple of mile walk at a brisk pace on Wednesday and ended the day with a 15 piece box of fried chicken, 15 jalapeño poppers, a pound of fried okra, and a xenecal. I know I did I fencing demo where at least my body was on task and professional. My mind and my emotions were running north and south I only hope I didn't make an ass of myself in front of my friends...again. I got home and my body, being the one on task hurt all over. It was a good pain. It was the kind that focuses you on what's important. I slept well and dreamed of a place that doesn't exist anymore. I am willing to forgive my whimsy for that on account of this is a new day.
Today's Friday, my legs feel like I went for a walk in a swamp with a house on my shoulders. Come to think of it, my shoulder's have felt like that all week. Pain is weakness leaving the body and a bitter man is a strong man. I carefully groomed my look today to say to everyone watching, I fear NOTHING, not even your pitiful ridicule.
My horoscope says today:
One of the problems you may be facing is how to maintain your freedom of movement while simultaneously stabilizing your security. You may not want to give up either your independence or your emotional attachments. Just remember that others cannot solve your irresolvable conflicts. No drastic action is required by you or anyone else now as long as you stay in touch with your feelings.
And it says tomorrow:
Even your most positive thoughts are anchored in reality now as you can see the importance of working within the structures. Trust these cautious feelings, for this may not be the best time to upset the apple cart. Find a way to express your rebellious streak without actually rebelling. Remember, towing the party line today won't necessarily prevent you from turning everything inside-out on another day.
And I say it can go to hell, I'm making a new day for myself and that goes for tomorrow too.
